i havent read them yet but im going to send them to my boyfriend and i to read

alright. remember the asshole thing i mentioned before. tbh i dont remember if he put it in or not and he said once in the pool i said he could which i dont remember but tbh idk. i dont believe he put it fully in but he was about to ig cause i felt the pressure. like i already figured out it was sex...

you think we can make it work if we rly do our hw

thank you sm

i dont know how. and i mean like about the other thign i thought he would know because the same day we were doing stuff and i said to smack my butt and he smacked and grabbed it and i got upset cause i never said to grab it as well. is that partially my fault for not tellig him. i never said he coul...

we dont have a counselor at school anymore. a lot of it is my anxiety and as is his. i rly want to learn how we can better us

but like is what i did bad about uk sayin what he did to make it better ig for me. i never was like no stop ig i was tired of arguin

hard to communicate. like i get so nit picky with things. hes not necessarily doing things wrong it was like he was grabbing my ass when i said touch it and i thought "i said touch but ok" and i just said to grab it to ig make the situation better because im sick and tired of doing things ...

we have gotten better since the last youve talked. consent is pretty hard. maybe im like going too deep into it. cause i make him ask for each little thing he does which is kinda weird but he abides by. he does it mostly but sometimes he slips up like i said touch my butt and he grabbed it and i was...

i go to school, sports are right after then i go home. he goes to school, goes to work then goes home

he said he was gonna kill his self and he said he wasnt he wanted to see if i cared but idk what to think. thats fucking disgusting. but idk if thats manipulative. i said like u gonna kys over me and he didnt respond then he said yep then didnt respond again when i asked 3 times. but he was like cry...

like neither of us rly got girls or boys on our phone cause we'd get jealous. and ig thats from the luggage we brought into the relationship. we got rid of people when the person asked to or if the person got mad about the person on the phone. like ik he has anxiety and all and i do too but idk how ...

we need help. he is kind of controlling. like im watching these videos and i was noticing stuff. like he always asks why im wearing makeup if im not seeing him and i dont listen cause i do whatever the fuck i want. and he always thinks im talkin to another guy. and i think hes talkin to ppl to and i...

idk what to do. tbh i want to work. ik he wasnt being malicious he always made a jokin face and a jokin expression. i coukd tell in his eyes he didnt. he always asks me what we do during sex is ok. and idk why i dont want to go. i can leave now he said he'd understand why. but i truely love him and ...

ok well if it is what should i do? is it not ok to stay. he hasnt done it ever since and uk ive done shit too. ik it sounds unhealthy and it is dont get me wrong. but i love him and i want to know if we take yall advice and work on it we can be together

well i asked if it was rape

and tbh i said he could or i would say uk we should do anal shit but we never did. he said he was never going to put it in and the incident im like thinkin of we just had sex and we went in the pool and we were fooling around. even we we had sex sometimes he put his thumb there and i moved it or sai...

well i called the sexual assault hotline and he said no cause it was a very long time ago like when we just started dating, he hasnt done it for close to a year now and like we didnt reallt set our boundaries. he said he was always jokin with it and ik he meant no harm in it. after i told him off an...

it was a long time ago but he and i were like going thru a phase and im sure he was joking ig idk but like we were in the pool or sometimes we would lay down and he woukd like put his finger on my asshole for some reason and i remember one time it did penetrate a tiny tiny but snd when he did it i s...

can we get online. i cant walk in my neighborhood and he doesnt live near one. but she was like no so i thought she just meant i shouldnt be with him. is that what she means?

id do anything to get better with him... i feel awful for what ive done. and i am willing to leave but i cant help how i feel. he means so much to me and i never cared for someone so much. even tho it doesnt seem like it he takes pretty good care of me and my feelings. hes a very sweet guy and he ha...

we talked about how to make things better as well. but like if u think we cant theres no reason for this

well because i dont have access to any books of the sort and so does he. and i mean if u think we cant work out why bother with all this..

then he told me how appreciative of me he is and how much he loves me and he really wants to work things out and feels like we can but im not sure. i love him dearly and ik i'd be devestated if he was out of my life because i dont want anyone else and frankly i dont even find interest in looking

i want space from him. and im sure he does from me. even not he said he's ok with that. we havent been as talktative to each other but we talk about us once we do. we dicsuss what can and cannot happen and what we dont like, like i said. he still supports me for softball and today was suppose to be ...