Feelings making me feel guilty?

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I've noticed that, in the rare times when I read a book that includes a rape scene or just someone performing unwelcome sexual advances towards someone else, and the same for when I see it in a movie, I think I get excited? It feels like, in my head I know it's wrong, but at the same time I start to feel aroused (you know, in my vagina) and then I instantly feel awful for feeling aroused and then I tend to just become a mess of worry and guilt. I feel like I have to remind myself that these types of things shouldn't arouse me....... is this normal?

[Johanna]

Welcome to Scarleteen!

It is totally normal and perfectly fine to have fantasies about things you would never want to be part of in real life. Fantasies happen inside our head and nowhere else, and those thoughts can't hurt anyone. There are no types of things that "shouldn't" arouse you - we really, as you know, have very little control over these kinds of feelings, and that's alright.