I don't really know why I want to so bad though. I think one of the factors is that I write stories and one-shots of me and characters I create of things I really want to do, to express it rather than bottle it. But, that just adds to my problem in a way. Because I write about characters loving me so much, I feel like my standards for appearance, physical and mental love are really high. I don't know if it's just hormones or what, but everything about this really upsets me, and I just wanna be in a relationship that I'm having in my mind. I wanna know what this is and why it's happening!
Sorry if this was really long, but this topic is a bit hard to explain!
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