really really scared of pregnancy but idk where else to ask this

[marriiaaaa86]

Ok ladies this is a long one sooo i'm 17 and i had sex for the first time on July 27th at 1:30 am, we didn't use any form of contraceptive (except for withdrawal, i know very very stupid of me), well he pulled out and one minute later he ejaculated on my stomach. Anyways i woke up the next day, hurting down there and i got worried and started searching stuff up and then i found out precum can get you pregnant and also according to my Flo app, it was my highest peak to get pregnant (my period was july 13th-18th)so i freaked and asked my cousin to buy me a plan B pill, which i took about 32 hours after. A day later, everytime I wiped myself, there was blood, so i searched that up and got scared of implantation bleeding and thus stress began. On August 3rd, I want to say i started my period, but it was light and only lasted 3 days. My period was supposed to come on August 14th, but never came. Then on Sept. 1, i got my period, i think, i don't know, and it was also light. On September 4, i took a pregnancy test and it came out negative. I was alittle relieved but then I got scared again from looking up women who didn't know they were pregnant/false negatives. So i took another test on September 15th, which was negative, but then i checked back on it four days later and there was a very very faint line. So i freaked out and called my friend and right away we went to buy a digital one on September 19, which also came out as negative (if i was pregnant i would've been 7 weeks), then on September 25th, i got , i want to say, my period which was a medium flow with clots, but me being me, i got scared and searched that up and saw ladies that were pregnant experienced vaginal bleeding with clots. Right now It's October,7, which i would be 11 weeks. I am experiencing cramping on my left abdominal side and bloating and headaches. Ya know i'm really scared and i have no one to talk too because i cant go to my mother because she would literally kill me lol. Also my lifestyle is that i drink caffefine almost everyday, i workout 4x a week, both cardio and heavy lifting, i've been having migraines so i started taking advil. Ever since the situation i haven't been able to eat because i've been to stressed/anxious, and i lost 15 pounds, also when i was 13-15, i would always get waves of nausea from anxiety and throw up my food and also my doctors thinks I have Irritable Bowel Syndrome :/// i don't know maybe you guys can help me, please tell me those three times were my period and not scary random spotting/implantation bleeding. (also on sept. 25th my blood started as dark brown but later turned red then back to brown) I have my first OBGYN appointment on Monday (Oct 9) to check my cyst i have on my right ovary but please please help me ease my worries

[Sam W]

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