After feeling this way for months now, I am finally ready to share my feelings with someone else. I’m currently in a relationship with someone that I truly love and who mostly makes me feel like I’m being loved and respected, which is perfect I know. However, I’ve been feeling a bit weird lately, it might be a part of PMS that i’m feeling this way. The truth is, I always feel like my boyfriend does not like me anymore. He used to compliment me all the time, yet he does so much less now. It’s been a little rough for him lately, he dropped out of college to start to a new college next year, so he was busy with the application process etc. and he also worked as an intern in the meantime. Anyways, he started acting as a forty year old... (he is 20 btw) i can’t say he is distant but there is something different with him. Maybe it is because he is stressing out about college right now... he never tells me what is the problem even though I ask every once in a while. The thing is, now I started to feel like I’m not enough for him, that is why he is acting this way right now. A month ago, he told me to dress up more appropriately (not that i was wearing something inappropriate, just a tshirt and my skinny jeans), since he was working he was dressing up for work, so he wanted me to dress up as if I was working too. But the thing is, I am a college student in a university that doesn’t have a dresscode and I should be wearing whatever I want... I found this quite rude and told him that he had no right to say something like that to me. Yet, this really broke my heart and I started taking more time dressing up, wearing what I thought he would like, as if he did not like me at all and I should make him like me as he did before... The last few times we had sex, I felt like he was not enjoying it at all, it took much more time for him to come... so now i feel like i’m not pleasing him in bed and i’m not enough. I’ve been working out so hard lately and almost stopped eating to look like a model. Yet i started eating much more now since I became underweight and started skipping my period. He was telling me that i lost so many pounds and my butt became flat... this made me really insecure with my body which never happened before... I don’t know if i’m just overthinking or he is trying to change me. Please help, I’m feeling super guilty and insecure... i’m crying myself to sleep for days now.
Thank you in advance
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