So I'm 21 years old and am in my first relationship ever. I am gay. I am in a relationship with a very caring and loving boyfriend and we have a very intimate sex life. We have been seeing each other for about 8 months now but around the first few months of our relationship one day I ended up masturbating at home alone to another guy. It only happened once. I never cheated on my boyfriend and would NEVER want to. Our relationship has grown and matured so much and I deeply care about him. I consider myself to be a very loving and honest person. My boyfriend says sometimes I'm a little to honest..lol. But on a serious note I feel guilty when I think back on the fact that I masturbated to a guy who is not my boyfriend. Ever since then I don't even look at porn because the only person I feel comfortable thinking about sexually is my boyfriend. (And I'm perfectly fine with not watching porn since it doesn't even compare to experiences I have had with my boyfriend and I really care for him). But basically I've been really beating myself up about masturbating to another guy and feeling guilty.
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