no pleasure in masturbating

[hannahschfr]

so.. im a young teenager, and i've been trying to enjoy myself with masturbation as a hormonal teen for a while. it's quite embarrassing to talk about because i never have before, but i want answers.

the problem is, anytime i try to pleasure myself after watching porn while im wet, i never feel good, usually just uncomfortable. this has gone on for a while now, and for the longest time i thought something was wrong with me.

i've tried inserting fingers, but i just feel icky about it and hate feeling the rigidness of my vagina.. i've tried rubbing around outside the hole and on my clit, but i don't receive any pleasure from that either..

also,today, i tried inserting fingers even though i hated the feeling, but when i pulled my fingers out they had a light coat of blood on them! yes, i do have my period but i didnt think it was that. it didn't look like period blood and it was very light.

im very confused on both these situations and maybe i need some closure or advice or something..
sorry if i was unclear in any of my writing,
thank you <3

[Sam W]

Hi hannahschfr,

With the blood, if you're currently have your period then it's still likely what you saw was menstrual fluid; it can vary in appearance and look heavier/lighter over the course of your period. If you felt like you scratched or tore something while using your fingers, then it's also possible you got a small cut or tear that resulted in blood.

As far as masturbation in general goes, when you try masturbating, would you say your brain is very engaged in what's going on and that you're very aroused when you try? Or do you feel bored, distracted, stressed, etc? And how much have you experimented with forms of masturbation that don't involve directly touching your genitals?