Yesterday I tried touching myself near my vagina for the first time. (Note: Untill now, I only masturbated by touching my clit, I never even went near my vagina hole) I tried inserting one finger but it hurt like f*ck. I noticed that I'm also really really, really tight, which I guess it's normal. But to be honest I got really scared because of that. Anyway.. I tried relaxing more and I managed to insert my whole finger without feeling any pain. I got scared and abandoned what I was doing..
This morning I got curious again about how it might feel after I start getting used to the sensation of having something there..
I tried inserting my finger again, slowly I got used and the pain faded away completly. I even started to move my finger inside really fast but I felt absolutely nothing... No pleasure.. Nothing.
I keep thinking and asking myself is it's possible not to feel even the slightest pleasure while fingering. It's bugs me so much now. I mean, I don't like sex? And how will my first time with a guy be? Why can't I feel any pleasure? It was just plain boring and at some point it frustrated me.
Please help. Is this normal???
