Lemme explain this

[Shreklover]

Ok i love porn i love watching it i love writing it but i hate how male centered porn is so i go to female porn then i learn i hate how soft it is I just realized something that is making me extremely depressed WHY THE FUCK DO I HAVE TO MAKE ALL THE PORN I WANT TO WATCH. I don't want to do that and porn is all i can do To get off Literally look at my other posts its how i get turned on so i have to struggle and scrape for good stuff every single day I'd love to draw porn if i was good at drawing I'd love to write it(and im good at it) but i hate how nothing is this world is built for me like nothing zero! I hate being alive i hate having sex i never want to do this shit again. But its all i can do in an abusive home?? How come there are never any answers

[amber]

Hi Shreklover!

I hear you about the feeling like nothing is 'perfect' when it comes to the content you are consuming. I will say that it kinda makes sense! We are all unique individuals with sexual interests and desires that are also unique. I think a big part of porn, no matter the format, is how it can be incorporated into your own fantasies rather than existing on its own. Does that make any sense?

I am sorry to hear that this is causing stress in relation to other areas of your life as well. I know you have come here before seeking advice on issues within your family and home life. Has anything changed since you were last here?

[Shreklover]

Nope cps showed uo once and never again im just gonna wait till i can leave, also iv decided on learning how to draw porn and writing it as well.

[char]

Hi Shreklover,

It sounds like you've already got some plans on creating sexual media that's exactly what you're looking for. I hope it goes well.

As for your family issues, have you been able to get any other external help besides DCF?