As mentioned in previous message boards of mine, I am In a college sports club. We do a lot of traveling in this club and there was a specific trip last year that had me feeling really emotionally warn down and also unusually sexually provoked.
For some context, I am a city kid, always have been I grew up in Minnesota and I still live and go to college here. This trip we took last year was to a state park in Georgia, where there wasn’t anyone else there except my team. And I was surrounded only by nature and no city streets, buildings or any of that stuff.
Something about being in that environment had me feeling really sad and emotionally deprived. I wasn’t feeling like that all the time during the trip, but those feelings showed up consistently and it ended up being a really hard trip for me.
And the other thing that happened was that my libido was through the roof for the entirety of the trip, and on the ride back. Like, unusually high to the point where my own desire was alarming me.
I couldn’t get my mind off of sex and it was just out of control. It was like I had to masturbate in order to feel like I could move forward with the rest of my day. And it kept coming up through out the day. The whole car ride back I was just sitting in the back seat with an erection that wouldn’t go away and I was trying so hard to get my mind to focus on something else.
Then when I finally got home, I felt completely normal again. It felt completely controllable again. Like, I was and am still a very sexual person, but that trip was unusually extreme.
I was just wondering if maybe you’d have some sort of an explanation why I was feeling that way. Is this normal when being in a state of home sickness and sadness?
It’s just that, we’re doing that trip again this year and it’s a big part of our training and also an opportunity for more bonding and getting closer with teammates.
But I’ve been thinking of talking to my coach about not going because I don’t wanna feel that way again. Those feelings made it a really hard trip for me.
2 years ago, we had that trip in a city and we all stayed in hotels and I had a great time and non of that crazy stuff happened.
I know I use the boards a lot but I just feel really comfortable here talking about my sexuality and don’t with most folks I know in real life. I hope you don’t feel like I’m abusing the privileges of this website.
Anyway, I was just hoping you’d be able to offer me some advice on some good ways to move forward and also maybe some explanation on why I felt how I did. Thank you
