Anxiety is taking me!!

[andvr]

So, I'm not pregnant, first the "pregnancy risk" was fingering with some precum on my boyfriend's fingers during ovulation, so that's not really a risk, I got it. Then i got some bleeding around the time was supposed to come my period (probably my period), then I got a home pregnancy test (Negative of course), then a blood pregnancy test, negative... And I still think I'm pregnant

I really think I have a mental issue, before I had that bleeding, I talked to my boyfriend, and he was very supportive, he was actually a little worried, because all i did was talk about how sure I was about pregnancy. Then my period started and everything was fine

Last night I told him that I still was scared of pregnancy and he was really mad at me, because i've been obsessed over this for over a month, even when I got my period... he doesn't even know that I've taken two pregnancy test, I don't want to tell him because I would feel SO embarrased. Like, right now I feel so alone, sometimes I'm good and optimist and then (like right now) I go online and read about pregnancy from fingers, implantation bleeding, false negatives (because I think I'd be the one that gets pregnant from fingers with some precum, I'll be the one with implantation bleeding, I'll be the one that gets several negatives before knowing I'm pregnant), etc, I do have better things to do, I have a lot to do because I'm in college and I have several tests coming, but I really can't focus on anything but this

I'm planning going to my gynecologist on monday to tell him what's going on, I'll probably aske her "can i get pregnant from precum on fingers?"

I know there's a lot of people on Scarleteen talking about their pregnancy scare and stuff, but I feel so bad right now that I cant avoid posting about this, sorry

[Heather]

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