So, probably this has a lot to do with the very common process of having grown up in a sexually repressive home, and learning to turn that around for yourself. Sadly, it's something a lot of people deal with and go through. Alas, there also aren't any ways to make this something to turn around quickly: I wish there were. It's more about gradual steps and just processing all of this over time. The more and more space someone in this spot tends to get from environments where they're getting those negative (or silent, which is effectively negative, just less overtly) messages also tends to help.
Give me a couple days (I'm off most of tomorrow and Saturday) and I can gather you up a bit of a reading list, if you'd like, that I think will give you some good starts. Do you have the ability to buy books or get them from the library, by any chance?
We can keep talking here if you like, of course, and I'm certainly not the only person you can do that with.
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