here's the problem: I can't not use it. I legitimately can't. I feel really gross if I don't, even though I KNOW the vagina is self-cleaning and all your vulva needs is to be washed with warm water. I know it isn't rational - it's some combination of anxiety, or OCD, or whatever, and I'm looking for a therapist + psychiatrist to deal with all that but in the mean time I just... don't know what to do. I know it isn't good for me to be washing with soap, but I physically can't not use SOMETHING.
so my question is: is there ANY kind of soap/wash/etc that's safe to use on my vulva? right now I'm just using my regular dove body wash, which is the only thing that doesn't irritate the hell out of me and make peeing feel like I'm being stabbed. I've seen washes and stuff specifically for vaginas in CVS and stuff, but I've also seen douches in stores and I know those are really bad for you, so I don't really know what to trust.
help
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