Over the last months, I have been struggling to find out who I am, sometimes it feels like I'm gay, and sometimes it feels like I'm not.
I have been masturbating for the past 3 years, and sometimes I may want to go anal, but I can't.
I can't talk this with friends or families because of cultural and religious issues.
I want to stop masturbating now but I can't, it feels like addiction. How do I know who I am?