im 16 and i feel weird about my gender. all my life ive been surrounded by men. my dad has always been included in my life more than my mom, i’ve been friends with men all my life, every day media(podcasts or videos) i watch involves men and it’s confusing me. most of the media i consume is misogynistic in a way, and it makes me feel like i wish i was never born a woman ever. im not really sensitive and i can take a few jokes.. but its really affecting me personally. i sometimes have thoughts of transitioning but i dont want to mess any of my relationships with my family or friends. my grandparents wouldn’t be happy.. they don’t even approve me wearing pants. they give me dirty looks and constantly talk about how i should dress and be more lady like. my friends wouldn’t be supportive either, one of my bestest friends is muslim and the others publicly stated on how ‘nice homophobic’ they are.. (have no idea what that means at all) and if being myself really means destroying my closest friends and family, then i dont want that.. i simply just wish i was born a guy. i wish i didnt have to deal with pregnancy scares, periods, or trying to appeal to guys because i want at least someone to like me and desire me sexually. i dont know how to feel because i was raised that ‘being a man is superior, and if you are a woman, suck it up because if you transition, you simply are an abomination and never be seen as a man.’ i dont believe that of course... it just that myself being transgender worries me.. i really envy the people who can be themselves.. online and irl. i have a few online friends that are transgender but i dont want to reach out because im afraid, i have been referred to he before, and also being misgendered countless of times.. i didn’t really care. it felt right for me.. if i actually am transgender what will i do? everyone around me is either homophobic or transphobic 