I have done a lot of looking on Scarleteen but this is the first time I have felt brave enough to register and post. Thank you for all the hard work you do educating people and creating resources!
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I'm a queer autistic female, with some trauma-induced mental health disabilities too. I've had mental health problems ever since being a preteen and have been on meds for them since then.
I feel like due to all of the issues I've had to deal with and the meds that were prescribed, I never really got a chance to have some of the experiences with relationships/intimacy/sexuality that it seemed like everyone else had (though I know that it isn't true that everyone else was having those experiences).
I am frankly uncomfortable with the idea that I even HAVE a sexuality, even not bringing other people into the equation at all (have never had a sexual partner). How do I get used to the idea that I have this part of me and that I am allowed to have this? It's not just due to queer stuff. It goes deeper, into feeling odd that I actually am a being capable of sexual feeling/function. I know that what part of I am feeling might be from gender role socialization, but adding in being autistic and the trauma/mental health stuff, as well as the medication-induced... lack of feeling... well, it just seems super confusing. I know it's not simple for anyone, but how do I even begin to approach this and understand all the intersectionalities.
Thank you!
shyfox