But, I come from a country that believes that any kind of same-sex attraction is unnatural and some kind of European influence. As a result of that any kind of same-sex sexual activity or relationship comes with a prison sentence (the law isn't very clear tbh and I think it was more a statement of the country's attitudes than any kind of practical legislature). Anyway my mom gave birth to me in the US so that I could have a good college education and I've been here since I graduated high school and might not ever leave.
However, my family shares pretty much the same attitudes that my country has and that's not likely to change. Even if my nuclear family, by some miracle, becomes okay with my sexuality, I would lose the network of extended family members around the world that host me when I go to places.
Based on this, I am not comfortable with ever fully leaving the metaphorical closet. However, I feel like forcing myself to marry a man and have kids with him, when that is not necessarily something that I want wouldn't be a good idea either. Also, right now, even though I am about equally sexually attracted to most genders, I am more interested in pursuing relationships with women. I just wonder if there is a possible middle ground with not coming out and coming out and seeing how I could navigate that. Thanks
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