(I was danny101 before but I changed my name
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I know that there's nothing wrong with having a high sex drive but... I feel like I just get annoyed by mine. I could masturbate and it would go away for a while, but then it would just be back again in an hour or less. Then I could try starving it out for a week but it would still be there the whole time, just making me even more frustrated.
I'm not really a huge fan of masturbation because it doesn't do much for me mentally (Or physically usually) and it kind of takes a long time so I get really annoyed by my libido never leaving me alone because it's not something I enjoy. Sometimes I try and incorporate... other stuff. "Erotic material"... just to speed the process along a bit, which leaves me incredibly embarassed because I just... feel so wrong having any of that in my life, regardless of whether it's pornographic video, written fiction, audio, or whatever else. It's hard to use my imagination for it since I don't even want to be doing it in the first place. I just... I just really hate my sex drive and wish there was a way to drastically lower it. Whenever I have to "Deal with it" I either feel dirty or ashamed if "external material" was involved, or bored and extremely impatient if it isn't, and then takes twice as long. Honestly I feel rubbish either way though, and kinda bored.
It doesn't consume my life or taint my relationships with others in any way (I mean technically I don't actually have any friends right now but it's never interfered with social interaction before). Ultimately masturbation only makes my sex drive calm down for a very, very short time and I don't enjoy it much. It feels like a chore, but if I don't then I don't get any peace at all. Sometimes I get lucky and it goes away for a day or two afterwards, which sadly is the most satisfying part of masturbation for me. Is there medication that gets rid of sex drive entirely or something? Or some other solution? I don't know what to do and I feel really stressed out about all this, and have for a while but never talked about it...